Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Rain brings out emotions

 It's Wednesday. 
Hump day. 
And it's raining. 

I know I'm not alone that rain brings out those depressing and/or sappy thoughts that you really don't like to feel. 
I'd never survive in Seattle. 

Today I'm thinking about how much has changed in the past couple of years. 
Two years ago I was deep in ppd. 
I was struggling to figure out who I had become and how to pull myself out of it. 
I was angry. 
I was sad. 
I was emotional. 
I was everything but happy.
PPD was really kicking my butt and I felt so alone. 
I was living in SC away from all friends or family that could give the help they so desperately wanted to give. 
My best friend sent me a peace lily. 
Her card was simple. 

The baby peace lily. 
"My sweet friend, I hope every time you look at this plant, you feel peace and overwhelming joy. Read Psalm 18: 32-36. I love you. Love, Spoon" 

"It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure.
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he causes me to stand on the heights. 
He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
You make your saving help my shield, and your right hand sustains me; your help has 
made me great. You provide a broad path for my feet,
    so that my ankles do not give way. " 

At that point in my life I didn't think God could fix the mess my life was at that moment. 
But I read the verse almost daily. 
And as my plant grew, so did I. 

Today, my peace lily is so big it desperately needs a new pot. 
And I am reminded that with each day I water and nurse this little buddy to great health, God is doing the same to me. 
When I forget to water it, it wilts. 
When I get to busy trying to keep my life from falling apart and miss my own spiritual watering, 
I too wilt. 

Not a baby peace lily anymore! 

I am thankful today for friendships. New ones and old ones alike. I'm thankful for those friends that are no longer a part of my life other than a memory. And I still pray for them. 
I'm praying for the new friends too. I want to be a good solid Godly influence in their life. 
And I pray for the friends who I haven't met yet. Friends that will be there for a season of my life that hasn't happened yet. I hope I am the friend THEY need as much as they will be the friend I need. 

As I get things finished up for our move this weekend, I find myself becoming overwhelmed with all that needs to be done and I so easily forget that these are blessings and meant to be loved and enjoyed. So today, I probably wont pack near as much as I need too but I will enjoy all the many blessings around me. Each box I do pack will have a little bit of love and thankfulness poured in it before it's tapped shut and labeled. 

Today, I will pass this peace lily, which sits on my kitchen table, well over 500 times.
And today my spoon, I will thank you, well over 500 times, for the reminder that Gods love is great.